Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Dirty Glitter 12-8-09

1. Dokken - In My Dreams

2. Whitesnake - Here I go Again

3. Sweet - Ballroom Blitz

4. L.A. Guns - Never Enough

5. .38 Special - Caught Up In You

6. Van Halen - Dance The Night Away

7. Zolar X - Jet Star 19

8. Blue Murder - Valley Of The Kings

9. Slaughter - Up All Night

10. AC/DC - Back In Black

11. The Jam - In the City

12. Led Zeppelin - D'yer Mak'er

13. Judas Priest - Living After Midnight

14. Zodiac Mindwarp & The Love Reaction - Prime Mover

Dirty Glitter 12-1-09

1. Scorpions - The Zoo

2. Aerosmith - Rag Doll

3. David Bowie - The Jean Genie

4. Candlebox - You

5. Dio - Rainbow In The Dark

6. Bad Company - Can't Get Enough

7. Kix - Cold Blood

8. Gun N' Roses - Welcome To The Jungle

9. Blondie - Call Me

10. Cinderella - Shake Me

11. Steppenwolf - Magic Carpet Ride

12. KISS - Heaven's On Fire

13. Lita Ford - Kiss Me Deadly


Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Dirty Glitter 11-24-09

Show # 3

1. Rebel Yell - Billy Idol

2. I'm Burning For You - Blue Oyster Cult

3. She Hates Me - Puddle Of Mudd

4. We're Not Gonna Take It - Twisted Sister

5. Jet City Woman - Queensryche

6. Cherry Bomb - The Runaways

7. Youth Gone Wild - Skid Row

8. Don't Tell Me You Love Me - Night Ranger

9. Trampled Under Foot - Led Zeppelin

10. Rhythm From A Red Car - Hardline

11. Beat My Guest - Adam Ant

12. Urgent - Foreigner

13. You Might Think - The Cars


Thursday, November 19, 2009

Dirty Glitter 11-17-09

The second show when off without a hitch!!! Thanks so much to everyone tuning in and supporting my love of glam and hair metal bands. Heart you all...

1. Rock Me - Great White

2. Ain't Talkin' Bout Love - Van Halen

3. Barracuda - Heart

4. Photograph - Def Leppard

5. Hello Hello I'm Back Again - Gary Glitter

6. Legs - ZZ Top

7. Talk Dirty To Me - Poison

8. Radar Love - Golden Earring

9. You Better Run - Pat Benatar

10. Kickstart My Heart - Motley Crue

11. All She Wrote - FireHouse

12. Bang Your Head - Quiet Riot

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Dirty Glitter 11-10-09

Hey guys Im gonna start posting the playlists for Dirty Glitter here along with info about upcoming shows...

1. Hot For Teacher - Van Halen

2. Mama Weer All Crazee Now - Slade

3. Nightrain - Guns N' Roses

4. 20th Century Boy - T. Rex

5. Do You Wanna Touch Me - Joan Jett and The Black Hearts

6. Animal - Def Leppard

7. Rock You Like A Hurricane - Scorpions

8. Sweet - Fox On The Run

9. Runaway - Bon Jovi

10. Uncle Tom's Cabin - Warrant

11. Motorboat - Kim Fowley

12. Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap - AC/DC

13. Any Way You Want It - Journey

14. Fantasy - Aldo Nova

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

My Shaman...

Whenever I talk about Shaman Durek, the first thing I say is that "he is profoundly effecting my life." I then follow up with a statement like "no words can begin to describe how amazing he is."

I found Durek though a girlfriend of mine who'd been working with him for a few months. I didn't even know what a shaman was when she first told me about him. As soon as she began describing who he was and what he did I knew I had to book an appointment to see him. I held onto his number for some time before actually getting up the courage to call. Yes I wanted to go see him and make positive changes in my life but I was also scared as hell to face some of the things that I held deep down within. I'd spent the majority of my 29 years on this planet repressing as much emotion as I possibly could. I figured it was better to play it safe rather than take the risk of putting myself on the line and be vulnerable. But my breaking point had come and I was ready to move beyond it.

When you go in for your first session with Shaman Durek, you'd swear that either there was sanskrit written on your body or someone called him ahead of time to divulge every little detail of your life. Without saying one word he already knows your history in this life and in past lives thanks to his ability to communicate with your spirit guides. The questions that come out of his mouth are retorical. He simply wants you to say the answers out loud so you can hear them for yourself and recognize them. My first session, like so many, involved a clearing. It's a process used to get rid of stagnant or negative energy. I think it might be one of the most emotionally intense things I have ever gone through. Had I not been there, I may not have believed it. I wanted to stay in that room forever. Shaman Durek makes you feel so safe and everything I had just experienced I wanted to go through again. I hugged him goodbye and was still crying because I knew my life had just changed in the most wonderful way and I had Durek to thank for it.

Since my first session, I have continued to see Shaman Durek on a weekly basis. If I had it my way I would see him on a daily basis. Every session we focus on something new and I feel like these little light bulbs in my head are being turned on one by one. I'm seeing the world in a whole new light, letting go of my fears, embracing what is already mine and learning to reprogram my thoughts. I cannot tell enough people about Durek and I want everyone to be able to see him. He is one the best things to enter my life and my heart sings when I think about him. I thanked him one day for changing my life and looked at me and said "I didn't change your life, you did. I'm just giving you the tools to do it." I love you Durek, you're beautiful inside and out. You turned an emotionally void, scared young woman into free spirit who's open to love and all the world has to offer. I can never repay you for what you have done for me.

Monday, June 1, 2009

A clear connection???

I recently found myself having one of those moments where I said "how was that in front of me the whole time and I never saw it???" You stop and wonder was I naive, was I not ready, whatever the case may be I was floored. I met this guy about 9 years ago and he's been in my life off and on ever since. We always had this weird connection and I was always very smitten but I never had that geek-out, butterfly feeling around him. You know, the one where you feel somewhat nervous like you're going to throw up and all your normal behavior starts to feel abnormal? Anyways, back story was that even if we had not spoken in 2 years, the second we saw each other we were right back where we had left off. We could talk for hours and hours on end and it was never anything physical except for the occasional embraces, hugs, hand holding, etc., but never beyond that.

I always said that he wasn't the kind of guy you date, he's the kind of guy who's your boyfriend. Let me clarify that for all the males reading this saying WTF?!? ... For most females (of course there is always exceptions) there are 2 broad categories that men fit into: there is the "dating/hang out" guy who can potentially become a serious relationship but basically they are just men who you want to go on dates and have fun with. Then there is "boyfriend/marriage" guy who you know right off the bat is someone you instantly envision yourself spending the rest of your life with. In my situation it was the latter. Maybe I was scared, wait I take that back, I was definitely scared! I have a less than stellar track record when it comes to picking men. The good ones always remain friends and I let the more toxic ones become lovers. About 3 months ago I decided to make some serious changes in my life. I'd really been working on clearing old energy and patterns. I came to the realization that I always chose toxic ones because A. I knew they wouldn't last and B. In some fucked up way I thought I was protecting myself. You see by "knowing" it wasn't going to workout I never had to let my guard down to give it a chance. I would just sabotage from the get go and put "fluff" onto my current situations so as soon as they crumbled I could take solace in saying "yeah, I saw that one coming."

But I didn't want that anymore. I wanted to be vulnerable, to open up and really let someone see me down to the very core of who I am. I looked deep within to see what I really wanted and I came to find out it was none of the things I had been seeking out. So I made one of those "lists" (don't judge) and then surrendered it to the universe and figured it will happen when and how it's supposed to. So I go hangout with my friend, the guy I've known almost a decade and I completely geeked out! I was a mess and had no idea what to do with myself. And the funny thing is that he is exactly the same as he's always been...hot, charming, intelligent, funny, strong, considerate, etc. but how come I never felt this way before? Next thing I know, it's consuming all my thoughts...when was I going to see him again?...was I sending too many texts?...Should I call or not?... I felt ridiculous and giddy all at the same time, it was actually kinda cool. What the future holds for us I really don't know but what I can say is that being able to "feel" and let go is incredible and better late than never : )

Saturday, May 2, 2009

The music sounds better with you...

My sense of smell is extremely acute. Aside from using it for the obvious, it also acts as a trigger. What the hell does that mean? Well, scents instantly transport me to another time and place in my life. For example, the cologne Eternity For Men reminds me of a guy that I was obsessed with when I was 15. Every time I smell it, I'm back at a party in the Jemez Mountains making out with him on the back of a truck. Music has a similar effect on me. I can hear the beginning cords of a guitar riff and then instantly, I'm lost in the depths of my own mind or reminiscing. Music is my magic carpet ride. I really don't know what I'd do without it.

I don't care where you are or what you're doing, if you hear music you like, you're instantly happy. On the opposite end, if you hear music you hate it can agitate or upset you. It can conjure up just about any emotion whether you want it to or not. I can't tell you how many times I've walked out of fitness classes because the instructor had zero idea of how pick music for the masses. It truly effects so many aspects of my life, at home, in the car (lord knows it's where Angelenos spend most of their time), at work, in a restaurant, at a bar, etc. I get goosebumps when I hear certain songs, how amazing is that!!! And why is it that we get such pleasure from sharing music we like with other people? My theory is that you're spreading a little joy to someone else, like giving them a gift that could possibly change their life as much as it has yours.

I like to place music into these "categories" for different occasions. Example: I have my "late night driving music," its very introspective for those times driving on the 10 freeway, up PCH or on the windy parts of Sunset Blvd stretching from Pacific Palisades to Beverly Hills. There is my "work" music which is a perfect backdrop for when I need to focus and get stuff done but need a little positive boost to hit peak performance. Then of course there's "workout" music which is a necessity for running and any intense fitness class. "Sex" music isn't used for the act per se but rather to describe an overwhelming feeling of wanting to rip someone's clothes from their body or ravish them. My "calming" music helps to relax or talk myself down from the road rage that makes me want to punch someone in the face : ). Break-up music, no explanation needed on that one. My lists go on and on but its a little insight into the way my mind works.

I've said on numerous occasions "It's weird, I never thought I'd end up working in the music industry." Now what's really weird about that statement is that it's not weird at all! I love music and always have. One of my first memories is sitting on my basement floor and watching the video for "Hey Mickey" by Toni Basil. I was hooked! Who are they crazy cheerleaders dancing around the screen? MTV pretty much ruled my life from that point on. I always thought I was gonna be an VJ but because of the amazing music that a little radio station called Indie 103.1 played, I decided that being a DJ would be equally as great. Clearly I was right on that call. The last 3 years have been nothing short of amazing and I'm grateful for each and every day. I don't think there will ever come a time in my life where music will fall by the wayside. If they're making it, I'll consume it and then share it.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

There is absolutely a kinetic energy in Los Angeles. It's this indescribable feeling somewhere between anxiety and excitement that gets you out of bed in the morning. Its one of the many reasons I love this city. I draw most of my inspiration from the late nights and early mornings when the city falls quite. The lines between hope and despair get blurred and what you're left with is this vortex where anything seems possible. At least, that what I get out of it.

There is no other place in the world like Los Angeles and chances are you won't find many people that feel indifferent to it...they either love or hate it. Nothing here is easy, no one gives you a guide book of "how to's", there is always traffic, downtown really isn't the center of the city, public transportation sucks and if you're not careful you could be eaten alive. Then there are the obvious things that make LA great...the weather, the endless choices of restaurants, the beach, the fact that you can drive 5 minutes and be in a completely different part/mindset of town, the shopping, the 24 grocery stores (im obsessed with grocery stores!!!), the PCH, concerts, local farmers markets, etc., I could go on and on! Me, I fucking love this city and everything about it. Its changed me as a person and it constantly keeps me guessing. I've learned to love and live for uncertainty. Actually, I thrive on it. And no matter how scary it is, I don't want to know what's gonna happen tomorrow because I want to be surprised.

Another thing about LA is that it has this gravitational pull that connects similar energies to one another. Because of it I've been lucky enough to meet some of the most wonderful people in the world. All of the friends I've made in LA are so dear to my heart. I consider them family and they're probably one of the main reasons I love it here so much. I had a conversation with a good friend the other day about how life is more than a journey, it's also about the people you meet along the way. Clearly not all of your encounters are going to be pleasant ones but I think you have to have those to learn lessons and become stronger as a person. If life was all roses and champange we wouldn't appreciate shit.

You can't really explain the city of angels to people who don't live here. To most it's just where Hollywood resides and where everything is fake. Yes, it does possess those things but there is so much more. I don't think my family really gets my life here, so I've let it go. They still think one of these days I'm gonna come to my senses or maybe even give college another go. Don't get me wrong, I adore my family and they're always loving and supportive but I hear the conversations..."When is she gonna get a real job with some health insurance?" The answer to that..."A quarter to NEVER!!!" That is one great thing about getting older, you decide how to live your life. Personally, I think my life kicks ass! Sure I wish my career was further ahead and I owned a house but I'll get there eventually. Always be happy but never satisfied, because when you're satisfied, you stop striving for more. And in this city, I want it all!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Here goes nothing.

I've pretty much been petrified of writing as long as I can remember. As soon as I would get a writing assignment in school my question would always be "what if I can sum it up in less pages than the minimum?" It literally kept me up at night. What the hell will I say and who cares anyway?

I think part of my fear come from the fact that I don't read nearly as much as I should and because of it my vocabulary is lacking. I wish that when I was younger, if my parents had been able to force me to do anything, it would have been to read more and take dance class (I still fantasize about being a dancer). That being said I've decided to give this writing thing a chance. My friends seem to think it will be therapeutic as well as help me get in touch with all the feelings I've been repressing for the 29 years I've been alive.

I've come to the conclusion that going through your 20's might be the most amazing and fucking confusing time of your life. You're in this really weird place where you're trying figure who you are, what you want, where you're going, where you've been and no one seems to have any of the answers you're looking for. Its crazy that on a daily basis I'm still learning things about myself I didn't know. I mean, how do I not know myself? One of the things I do know is that I'm the person who has to fall flat on my face and slide into the next wall before I really learn my lesson. Yes of course I know the fire is hot but I still need to stick my hand in it to make sure. So I guess in a sense, this blog is to help me stay on the path to figuring it all out. Enjoy.